Thank You Custer Family

Yesterday I saw a package sitting at my front porch and couldn't figure out what I had ordered. I opened it and saw this

YUM! Also with the yummy cookies was a card from my sister Lea Ann, really it said the Custer Family- but we know women understand the need for chocolate when there is drama! The card said they hope Baylee gets better soon. Such a simple thing- I was kind of surprised to find myself crying when I read it. I don't cry easy- I'm one of those that it takes A LOT to make me cry.

When I read the card so many emotions and thoughts ran through my mind. First of all, just all the things they did to Baylee and I just had to sit and watch. Uggg, just typing about it makes a knot in my stomach!

I knew she was sick and needed help, but having to hold your baby while they stick a needle in her arm numerous times while they fished around with the needle since her veins were so tiny, having to hold her down while they put a catheter in. I was doing ok through all that- it was the stupid spinal tap that did it! The doctor made me leave because I was a little ornery about them doing it. He told me it didn't hurt her, it felt like an epidural. HELLO!! He has obviously not had one because epidurals hurt- there is so much pressure on the spine it's not a good feeling. So when I was asked to leave I could hear her crying. It was not a mad cry from being held down- it was a hurt cry. I was done- I wanted to open the door and take her away from them and not let them hurt her anymore. There is just something so wrong about having to let people hurt your baby! But I knew I couldn't - we needed to find out what was wrong. It was close to 5 in the morning and I hadn't slept, it all hit me then. I was barely standing up straight in the hall sobbing. I needed Darrell, I needed someone that knew us- really knew us. The nurses were trying to help- they were trying to hug me, but Baylee was just a patient to them.

This is what mainly stuck in my mind when I read the card from the my sisters family- even though they were across the country- family was trying to be there for us.

We had so much help, love and support from all our friends here- I feel like some of them are as close as family. We are so blessed to be in a ward that is so loving and so willing to jump in and help everyone. But having something physically to hold in your hands from family that is so far away just made it so much better. I don't really know how to explain it!!

So thank you Custers! The cookies were so good- I know Baylee appreciated the happy smiles all of us had on our faces as we ate them! But more then that- thanks for message you sent telling us that even though you are far, you're still close.

Here's a few pics of Miss Baylee feeling much better. Excuse the slobber- she is quite the slobber girl these days!

This next picture makes me laugh- Baylee loves her sisters! As soon as they moved away from her she started crying! She likes to be on her tummy- but likes it lots more when her sisters are playing with her.